Mr.PIC somehow strain his back while working on Sunday. He came home and told me about it..and it was difficult for him to get up after sitting down..after lying down..walking pun have to be careful.
Later that night, I don't know but I felt kinda irritated..*felt bad*..I got irritated sebab last week..gigi dia sakit..this week..belakang dia sakit..pasal sakit tu I can handle..tapi mengada-ngada dia tu that made me irritated..hmm..suruh urut tangan/kaki la..etc..tapi suruh picit tangan/kaki tu mmg everyday pun..I am tired too..morning pergi school then petang kerja..balik dari kerja..I wanna just chill with him and watch TV and just browse the internet..I rarely ask him to give me a massage or anything unless it is something like back pain or kat pinggang ke..then..I asked him to give me a massage sekejap..
Well anyway, back to that Sunday night..I told him off..*bad wife*..I just said..you just want to watch TV comfortably..ada orang picit tangan you kaki you..I think I should enrol you kat spa or something..if I have 4 hands..tangan kaki you la I picit..jahat kan? hmm..well, after that he went quiet..and I felt really bad after that..dia merajuk la tu kan..that night before we went to sleep..I apologized and last night I offered to picit kaki dia..mula2 jual mahal tu..heheh..after that..dia hulur la kaki dia untuk dipicit..hmm..macam2..
I read in a blog once and the blogger who is a she by the way mentioned masa dia bujang dulu dia jealous tgk couples yg dah kahwin and she thought senangnya the wife nak masuk syurga by being wife yg solehah. Then after she got married, baru dia realize yg susah nak jadi isteri yg solehah ni. Mmg mencabar kesabaran betul. I agree with her now...ye la, with Mr. PIC being unwell..this is the time to get pahala by taking care of him..willingly..tak payah tunggu dia suruh pun..but what happened instead? I got irritated..hurt his feelings..haihh..I felt really bad and lousy..I still do even when I am typing this.
I really hope that I can be a good wife..kena banyak sabar..kuatkan iman..insyaAllah..
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Sunday, February 13, 2011
Mr. PIC is not feeling well. Gigi dia sakit and at the same time, he feels like coming down with a cold. Poor baby. He is sleeping now on the couch now. As for me, just being online with the TV turned on is enough for me. I am kinda easy to please you know.
Another friend of mine announced that she is pregnant. She has been married I think for almost 4 years now, and I am happy for her. She was diagnosed with ovarian cancer and after the treatment and all, and once the doctor gave her the nod to proceed on trying to conceive, they succeeded. I am happy for them but of course, being me, I felt this big lump in my throat. I want a baby too.
Hmm..sometimes when I watched how couples handled their baby whenever their babies were having tantrum..I turned to Mr.PIC with this scared look and he said.."See, you were only thinking about the cute, cuddly stuff,heheh.." Yeah, kinda true..well, who wouldn't right? I mean, after all the tiredness of dealing with the difficult things, all the cute, cuddly, melt your heart kinda things that are going to make it all worth while. Kan?kan?
Just have to continue praying and hoping..the rezeki will come when the time is right..
Another friend of mine announced that she is pregnant. She has been married I think for almost 4 years now, and I am happy for her. She was diagnosed with ovarian cancer and after the treatment and all, and once the doctor gave her the nod to proceed on trying to conceive, they succeeded. I am happy for them but of course, being me, I felt this big lump in my throat. I want a baby too.
Hmm..sometimes when I watched how couples handled their baby whenever their babies were having tantrum..I turned to Mr.PIC with this scared look and he said.."See, you were only thinking about the cute, cuddly stuff,heheh.." Yeah, kinda true..well, who wouldn't right? I mean, after all the tiredness of dealing with the difficult things, all the cute, cuddly, melt your heart kinda things that are going to make it all worth while. Kan?kan?
Just have to continue praying and hoping..the rezeki will come when the time is right..
Friday, February 11, 2011
NOT IN THE MOOD
I woke up this morning feeling down. Don't know why..just don't feel like doing anything, I didn't even want to come to school pun today..hmm..
But then ku gagahi juga diri ini..walked to school and did some things that I have planned to do. Although sebenarnya, banyak nak buat..I told myself..do something..anything that is PhD related..tak kisah la apa pun..and I did one experiment in the cleanroom and I helped a technician with a check list for this one equipment..so ok la kot for the day..*sigh*..this is not good...
It feels like so close but yet so far. Rasa mcm nak sampai dah at the end of the tunnel..tapi tak sampai2 pun lagi..hmm..nak publish paper pun supervisor suruh tunggu..wait till you get the ultimate result..well, in my opinion, kalau I send my abstract first, yg penting accepted..once accepted, the full paper will be requested a few months after that and by that time, hopefully, I have obtained my results already la kan..duh..but yeah, don't argue with your supervisor. Once he started to get annoyed with you..susah la..
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What is this about 'Wordless Wednesday' blog entries? Heheh..I found out about it the first time in one famous blog..and then all of a sudden..most blogs that I have followed started doing it. Even with the same title..Hey, don't get me wrong, it is your blog..up to you nak buat entry mcm mana..nak letak one word entry pun it is totally up to you..I just find it amusing..heck, maybe I will end up doing it too :)
But then ku gagahi juga diri ini..walked to school and did some things that I have planned to do. Although sebenarnya, banyak nak buat..I told myself..do something..anything that is PhD related..tak kisah la apa pun..and I did one experiment in the cleanroom and I helped a technician with a check list for this one equipment..so ok la kot for the day..*sigh*..this is not good...
It feels like so close but yet so far. Rasa mcm nak sampai dah at the end of the tunnel..tapi tak sampai2 pun lagi..hmm..nak publish paper pun supervisor suruh tunggu..wait till you get the ultimate result..well, in my opinion, kalau I send my abstract first, yg penting accepted..once accepted, the full paper will be requested a few months after that and by that time, hopefully, I have obtained my results already la kan..duh..but yeah, don't argue with your supervisor. Once he started to get annoyed with you..susah la..
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What is this about 'Wordless Wednesday' blog entries? Heheh..I found out about it the first time in one famous blog..and then all of a sudden..most blogs that I have followed started doing it. Even with the same title..Hey, don't get me wrong, it is your blog..up to you nak buat entry mcm mana..nak letak one word entry pun it is totally up to you..I just find it amusing..heck, maybe I will end up doing it too :)
Tuesday, February 8, 2011
FEBRUARY 2011
Gosh, how fast time flies..it is February already and for all you know, it is going to be April soon.
I have submitted my extension application and it seems to be going well. I mean, I don't know whether I will get it but I just know that it is in process and for that, I am glad. Once my visa is extended, I think I will consider quitting my part-time job. Maybe by May or June. Cukup la 2 tahun saya bekerja, hehehe..
Last week was tough. The hits just keep on coming. But then, what I think make me felt happy and kinda proud of myself was that I managed to find out what is the cause of the problem. Hmm..I went back to basic..did some research and I managed to find out what went wrong. Once I know what went wrong, at least I can find out a solution..although I still don't know whether it will work out or not, but, at the moment, it all make sense. The thing is, the process of trying to solve the problem and finding out possible solutions had made me realized how I have grown as a researcher..chewah...but of course, all the inspirations came from Him and I am grateful for the light at the end of this particular tunnel. I do hope that it will all work out.
What else?Hmm..I kept telling myself that everyone's PhD journey is different. Stop comparing or you will end up 'sakit jiwa' or even worse, 'riak'...Riak because your journey is better...riak because your journey shows that you are brighter than the rest and so forth..although at the moment, whenever I start to compare, it is more towards rasa sakit jiwa..heheh..
A colleague of mine had finished her viva and she basically a Doctor now. We are so happy for her but of course couldn't help to feel crazy jealous that she has finished. Heheh..she said, just be patient, your time will come. Yeah, I know..insyaAllah my time will come..the time when the examiners will shake my hand..and said..'Congratulations, Dr.'...I think at the time, I will scream with happiness and hug my husband as tight as I possibly can. :)
I have submitted my extension application and it seems to be going well. I mean, I don't know whether I will get it but I just know that it is in process and for that, I am glad. Once my visa is extended, I think I will consider quitting my part-time job. Maybe by May or June. Cukup la 2 tahun saya bekerja, hehehe..
Last week was tough. The hits just keep on coming. But then, what I think make me felt happy and kinda proud of myself was that I managed to find out what is the cause of the problem. Hmm..I went back to basic..did some research and I managed to find out what went wrong. Once I know what went wrong, at least I can find out a solution..although I still don't know whether it will work out or not, but, at the moment, it all make sense. The thing is, the process of trying to solve the problem and finding out possible solutions had made me realized how I have grown as a researcher..chewah...but of course, all the inspirations came from Him and I am grateful for the light at the end of this particular tunnel. I do hope that it will all work out.
What else?Hmm..I kept telling myself that everyone's PhD journey is different. Stop comparing or you will end up 'sakit jiwa' or even worse, 'riak'...Riak because your journey is better...riak because your journey shows that you are brighter than the rest and so forth..although at the moment, whenever I start to compare, it is more towards rasa sakit jiwa..heheh..
A colleague of mine had finished her viva and she basically a Doctor now. We are so happy for her but of course couldn't help to feel crazy jealous that she has finished. Heheh..she said, just be patient, your time will come. Yeah, I know..insyaAllah my time will come..the time when the examiners will shake my hand..and said..'Congratulations, Dr.'...I think at the time, I will scream with happiness and hug my husband as tight as I possibly can. :)
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