IT IS OVER AND DONE WITH

Alhamdulillah..praise to Allah swt..

I have completed my PhD. Alhamdulillah..

My viva was one of the scariest moments of my life..mmg berdegup je jantung..tak senang duduk..nervous sangat..I arrived 4 days before the viva..the day of arrival mmg agak penat..so, tak revise apa2 pun..even masa kat Malaysia pun I didn't do any revision sebab rasa mcm tak boleh nak masuk pun..so, anyway, I started revising for the next three days..flipping my thesis..saw some stupid and silly mistakes..written some notes..etc..

My viva was on the evening and the external examiner came from Surrey. So, I was informed by my supervisor that his flight got delayed so, mmg start lewat 30 minit..lagi la buat saya nervous.

Anyhow, the time came and they did try to make me feel comfortable..and my internal examiner siap cakap..it is not going to be an enjoyable one..but it will a meaningful experience for you..hahaha..how true!

The first 30 minutes was torturous...they asked basic questions that for me had nothing to do with my thesis..it was more on Physics instead of Fabrication..but then, they did help me and guide me to answer the best that I could. I remember sikit2 mana yang boleh and they gave me hints for me to try my best to answer the questions...it was such a difficult moment for me to say 'I don't know...' sebab mmg saya tak tahu..bila kenang2 balik mmg rasa sedih je..

Anyhow, after that they started to ask me about my thesis and I felt better by then. I tried to answer and commented on their questions. The good thing about my viva was that my external had to catch his flight later that evening, so, mmg time flew so fast..dah 2 jam and he was kinda rushing towards the end..mmg rezeki saya..Alhamdulillah..Allah permudahkan..

So, they asked to step out while they were discussing about me. After about 10 minutes, I was asked to come back in and my external examiner stood up to shake my hand and said congratulations..and what did I do?

I cried my eyes out!! I cried while shaking his hand...and I cried again when I shook my internal examiner's hand...I said thank you..thank you so much..my supervisor pun bergenang je mata dia..terharu sangat tgk drama..hahaha..!

After that, I called Mr. PIC and then I called my mom..mmg tak tau la nak describe mcm mana..happy and rasa mcm tak sangka dah habis..

Tapi actually belum habis lagi la kan..I had to do my corrections. They wanted to give me 1 month correction period but since I had to go back to Malaysia, they gave me 6 months..but for me, I wanted to finish everything sebelum balik Malaysia for good..it will be very distracting for me to do it in Malaysia..plus senang nak access data at school..so, I tried my best to finish my corrections in that one final week. I met my internal examiner that helped me a lot as he tried to improve certain part of my thesis..ye la, sebab dia pun yg kena bagi that final approval...

16th March 2012 marked the day that I had submitted my hard-bound thesis..As I walked to the graduate school, rasa sebak bila pegang my thesis tu..it was only at that time, I realized that this is it. Before that mmg tak sempat nak rasa apa2..sebab busy prepare mcm2...rasa mcm sedih pun ada..happy pun ada..

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I am back in UIA..baru je lapor diri last week and so far, things are okay I suppose. Masih rasa overwhelmed with new responsibilities because now you must try to be active in research..hmm..with great power, comes great responsibilities..hehehe..I am still green..cannot imagine being a supervisor to a Master student..apatah lagi PhD student..but I know that I must start somewhere.

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Next is trying to have a baby of our own..belum jumpa doktor or anything like that lagi..we are trying to conceive naturally dulu..at the moment, me and Mr. PIC are trying to shed off some..well..more like a lot of excess fat..hehehe..so, we signed up to a gym..baru je 2 minggu start..belum la nampak hasilnya pun..rasa makin berisi ada la..hahaha..! Mana taknya lepas gym je rasa lapar semacam..so, singgah la makan..cover la balik all the burned calories..:)

So, anyhow, that's it from me for now. Will try to update more soon and more frequently, InsyaAllah..